point out hte good things too....

I'm going to take this moment to procrastinate a bit more and tell you about the good thing that happened today. I am naturally pessimistic when it comes to myself, a disease i contracted at an early age that i just can't shake.

but in a weak but amiable effort to change that, i am going to share the good thing that happened today in hopes that i might be a bit more positive and not so depressed.

dr. jenne, my methods professor from salisbury university came out to my school to observe my teaching. i knew he was coming but anxiety had the best of me. i was afraid he was going to tell me that i was aweful and that i needed to leave the program. (see, i told you i am naturally pessmistic then it comes to myself.)

but, he said he was impresed by my presence in the classroom, that my plans for stations were great, that i was helping out students, and that i dismissed the kids, not the bell.

he had only one tiny suggestion which will only help me out.

i am RELIEVED.

i wish i felt more satisfied about it all. i wish i still didn't feel so depressed. i have very little reason to be. oh well.

i am RELIEVED.

now to planning tomorrow......

walking through the flames

today i went to bayshore community church in gumboro, delaware. i really like it there. everytime i go i feel uplifted/convicted/eyes opened. today pastor tice wrapped up his sermon on stress. (!!!) he discussed how we tend to make mountains out of mole hills. he said we need to compare our situation to the big picture and decide how life threatening it actually is.
he used hte illustration of shadrach, meshach, and abednigo. these men's lives were actually threatened. they were going to die a most painful death.

then, another man was seen walking around with them. there were three and now there are four!
the Son of God was in the fire pit with them! just as he was with them, He is with you and me.

Isaiah 43-

1

But now, thus says the LORD, who created you, O Jacob, and formed you, O Israel: Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name: you are mine.

2

When you pass through the water, I will be with you; in the rivers you shall not drown. When you walk through fire, you shall not be burned; the flames shall not consume you.

I feel as though i am drowning. i can't keep up. but it is okay. because i am His, and He is mine. He is with me. i am not drowning. He is my life-preserver. whatever comes, whether i fail out the education program or i squeek by, i find a teaching job in a private school or a public school, i work at pier 1 or the federal government, i will live and thrive, i will not drown, i will not die by consumption of fire. He was with shadrach and his brothers, and He is with me. He has redeemed me, He has called me by my name, He has called you by your name, we are His.

i understand now

i just read over krissy robins last blog...

now i understand.

the breaking point, the exhaustion, the never-ending planning, yet you feel like you haven't down enough.

its exhausting. especially to us perfectionists.

is there over a sense of reaching a point where you don't have to stay up till eleven at night and get up at five thirty?

IS THERE A POINT TO THIS?

i know i have only twelve more weeks... but friends, twelve more weeks feels like an eternity.

i don't want to quit. i've quitted to many times before. i am NOT quitting.

Be my Rock and My Fortress, Oh Lord!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

minus one

we were missing one sister....

supervisors

i am student teaching at a school forty minutes away (yeah, forty minutes, what?)

my supervisor came out today to do my midterm evaluation. ( which turned out to very good, but thats not my story here.)

my sixth period class (end of the day, we all are tired) the kids asked me if my parole officer came out to see me.



i said what?


your parole officer!


my supervisor?


yeah, your parole officer.


oh, okay. yes he came.



so, my supervisor will now be refered to as my "parole" officer.


ah, the eighth grade.

unattractive

ya know what is really unattractive?

complaining, not just complaining, but whining boo-hoo-ing about nothing really.


super unattractive.


also, cursing.


sometimes those four letter and five letter words slip out, but listening to other people use them is just super aweful.


yuck.

fearless

i just love taylor swift's newly released "fearless".

/ you take my hand and drag me head first/ fearless..

/i would dance with you in a storm/ in my best dress/ fearless

i don't know why but its just super cute and fun and makes me feel younger:)

songs that make you feel younger are always good!

Sienna and Michael '10

i just love these shots.

Pearl Harbor

Tomorrow is the 68th anniversary of that infamous day. Over 2,200 Marines and soldiers died that day. Pray for our Armed Forces!

Michael- U.S. Army
Rick- U.S. Navy